these ladies just arrived - rather suddenly
Lately I have been feeling sad. I have heard too many sad stories, been reminded of how fragile and delicate life can be. Life, for the time being has lost its robust character and my mood has followed. My natural inclination has been to avoid this feeling, to escape it, to resist its incursion into my life – to distract myself from allowing this mood to invade my soul.
But something tells me to rather stay with it, see where it takes me. As Thomas Moore says in the Care of the Soul – ‘some feelings and thoughts seem to emerge only in a dark mood. Suppress the mood and you will suppress those ideas and reflections.’ Rather than being afraid of the mood he encourages the reader to move into the darker shades of what it has to offer. The soul is then able to express itself in a different way. In this place there are lessons to be learnt, new understands, new ways of seeing things. I’m trying to be brave to embrace this melancholy and see what it has to teach me. I think we are too afraid of embracing these darker feelings, we have been conditioned in our modern world to see them as undesirable, yet they have gifts to bring our souls.
I have found that this pensive mood has made me look back and observe my life in different hues, the colours are more muted. I feel an urgency not to waste anymore time, I feel something pulling me forward, encouraging me to be braver, to explore, to not resist life but to rather flow with it. I suppose in essence it is my own mortality that I am being forced to consider.
but i'm glad they did - I hope they stick around for awhile