she thought for a long time about how to be happy - but decided
that maybe she was happy already
Isn’t it amazing that just when you think you have dealt with an issue in your life then wham it seems to rear its head and wag its finger in your face?
This year was turned out to be difficult. It has been a busy year, filled with too many things to do and not enough time. Somewhere in the hazy of rushing around, I’ve patted myself on the back for over coming many of the issues that have hampered me and held me back most of my life. These issues are the usual ones, self esteem, family relationship issues etc. I’ve done the work and slowly put things into perspective, become more aware, learnt to put distant between myself and the issues and believed that I had moved on.
Then things happen, and you are right back where you started, or are you? I’m not sure. I was distressed about this but then released that I have changed, sometimes the old hurts do come back but mostly it is because others are still where they have always been. Yes, the same old stuff can hurt but somehow I seem to have more resilience, more grit maybe even more maturity – I hope. It is easier to pick myself up, shack off the dust and begin again. I guess the old hurts will always hurt but maybe just not in the same way.