When I work at the shop I look around at all the young moms with there little children, and realize just how fast time has gone. It seems like only yesterday that I was that young mom with my two small girls, now they are all grown.
I look at those young moms and see something on their faces - an assurance, a confidence, I don’t want to call it arrogance, it’s hard to explain exactly what I mean. But I know that I felt that way too a few years ago, before the last sparks of youth left me forever. I was confident then that I had enough time to achieve all the things I thought I was capable of achieving – even though I didn’t really have a plan. Life seemed easier, infinite, like it would go on forever, but now when I look in the mirror I see that youth has left my face and I am well and truly into middle age.
From that perspective – my answer to Jess’s question would be yes, life has gone very fast.
But then when I sit and contemplate life and think about the many experiences I have had, then I think my answer would be – no. It would seem that life is a bit of a paradox – what a surprise!
I must admit that I have a nostalgic pang for my youth. I sometimes wish I could go back and redo, take more time to appreciate being young, to be more present in my life instead of always wishing for tomorrow to arrive.
I think my final answer to Jess would be: be present in your life, be mindful and appreciate each day. I know that when I look back those are the days that I remember the most, the days that I was fully present are my happy days, and that is really what counts.
hallo - Kate (15)